drawn

does that look right? drawn. weird...

anyway, lately i have heard the still small voice drawing me. He wants me close. my mind has been racing, with the things of heaven. with the thoughts of God. His life. His ways. His views. I know it's just a tiny tiny glimpse of His true mind, but what a great honor to have the mind of Christ.

why do i go months and months in dryness? famine. wandering in the dark wilderness.. ?? why! i have all things at my very disposal. in Him. His love. His response to life. His purposes. big dreams. ministry, sacrifice, blessings... and i settle for the nothingness. the monotony. the fake, the distant, the vague, the surface relationships, and everything that goes along with this worldly life. a

nd then, in His awesome wisdom, and mercy, He DRAWS me in, and gives me just a little sip of The water, His water... and He says i will never thirst again... how i long to learn what this means.. because i seem to thirst again and again.. when will i learn to run to Him first, and not last?