a lot better

Thanks for praying for us if you've been doing that over the last several days. Wednesday was my last day of feeling like a crazy person, and every day since then, I have felt normal, and have been able to act normal. Man, that whole spell really made me have compassion for those people who have an ongoing chemical or hormonal imbalance that they just live with all the time. There is absolutely NO control over self, and so your sin just rages. Romans 7 describes really well how I have felt during that time.

14We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. 15I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.^c For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

21So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; 23but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. 24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? 25Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!

So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God’s law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.

We had a wonderful weekend, and a very relaxing party on Saturday, especially since Cora was here for James. I can't believe it has already been almost 5 months since she started working for us, and I still feel like I'm getting to know her, and getting used to how it is going to be now that we have her available for events like Josiah's party the other day. It is SO nice. It makes me think that maybe we can actually do fun things together as a family and be somewhat normal and pleasant toward one another without all the STRESS. I am thankful to The Lord for her. He gave us just the right person for the job. I couldn't have chosen a better nurse myself!

The rain is back today, and Josiah and Caleb and I are staying indoors. I wasn't sure how that was going to go, since Josiah has gotten used to going outside everyday, but we had a great morning. I got James off to school without any major stress (with all three kids in the van!) -- Thank God for our built-in DVD player in the van!!!! Then, I got an oil change, my tires rotated, and one of my tires repaired (it had a slow leak) WITH Caleb and Josiah, and it was actually fun. Josiah obeyed at the tire shop, and Caleb slept the whole time. It helped that they had popcorn and candy machines with peanut M&Ms that I could use to distract Josiah... He had on his red rain-boots, and he was charming everyone in the waiting room -- even one of the guys who worked there. Haha!! He could watch the men working on the tires on all of the cars through a viewing window from the waiting room, and he LOVED it. CUTIE!!

Then, at home, it helped to have his new toys from his party to give him to keep him from thinking about the back yard. He played with legos all morning while I organized Caleb's clothes (he's already outgrowing all kinds of things!!!) - and did dishes and laundry, of course... it's never ending!!

Now they're both sleeping (yay!!) and I'm enjoying the leftover fresh-caught salmon that our neighbor Jim gave us for lunch and a couple of leftover cookies from the party - I need to get RID of these! I keep eating them!!! AHHH.

Ok, well anyway, things are good. Praise the Lord!